I love my life

Oh I sooolove where I am living. It's gorgeous, It's peaceful, It's full of adventure, so many places to explore and I love it.
This morning I went to a gorgeous little market in a tiny town hall. Beautiful people with beautiful produce. I found a fellow student of herbalism selling her most amazing homemade skin care products, all organic using her own homegrown medicinal herbs.I bought day cream, calendula cream, hand cream and witch hazel , so cheap, she even discounted it.
I wish I had my camera there. Next time I'll remember.
Once we get our garden established I too will join in the markets selling our produce.
Hubby is busy peparing the ground for our veggie patch. There is so much work to do but I know it will be so fantastic when it is all up and running.
The other most fabulous thing about our new life is that my kids loooove it. It is everything I hoped it would be for them.
Thank you universe for allowing my life to be so wonderful.

NEW LIFE NEW YEAR

2010 begins for me living in a large shed on the far NSW coast. We have electricity but no water yet. We have a makeshift kitchen and we are sleeping on air beds until all our furniture arrives on 15th Jan.

I awake each morning to beautiful fresh air and the sounds of birds chirping. Each night I drift of to sleep listening to frogs and creatures gently humming. I look out the windows and see green rolling hills and bush.

We usually go to the beach early in the morning and again late afternoon. As I have no gym to go to or gym equipment(yet) I walk around the country roads for about an hour. I try to do 2 walks a day.

I feel so lucky to be able to finally live this lifestyle.

Boring Blogger

There won't be much blogging going on here for a while. We are about to move house. Where we'll be living our wireless doesn't work as well as we'd like. Meaning we have to drive up the top of the road for it to work. We also have less download so blogging will not be high on my priority list. I'm not sure that anyone really looks at this, not that it matters.
I want to be less interested in wasting time on the internet. That's all ready happening for me but I would like to really get away from it.
As I'm a pretty boring blogger, no one will miss me. So maybe next year when I have more interesting things to say I will come back from time to time.
Merry christmas fellow bloggers may 2010 be the best year ever.

So I've decided to change my path on my blog. Instead of the focus being weight loss I want it to be about improving and gaining health and happiness through understanding my body . I will do this by eating the most fresh and raw diet as possible and using herbs. The herbal medicine path is part of my journey and learning through my study of Naturopathy that I'm doing.

The raw eating is purley about giving myself the best nutrients possible. I won't say that I'll be 100% raw but as raw as possible. I won't be vegan (yet) as I still use yogurt,sometimes milk and will sometimes have chicken or fish.

After listening again to some podcasts from people following a raw lifestyle it is evident that eating this way is really optimum for sustaining health and vitality. I has also made me accutley aware of the shit my kids sometimes eat. I want to make much more of an effort into their nutrition. Especially what they take to school. I don't believe it is right to allow kids "treats" without acknowleding that we are really giving them a toxic chemical compound that can do untold damage to their growing bodies.

There are some fantastic looking recipes out there for raw food. I do find the ingredients more expensive but I'll have to live with that. Especially in Australia, today I looked at mangosteens-$1.98 for 1 and I reckon it was 1 bite full. These prices make it very hard for the average family to try new fruits and veggies. There are days I buy completely organic from the farmers market and then others I buy at the supermarket because it is so much cheaper.

So yesterday I opted for green tead rather than my usual homemade cappucino. I ate raw nearly day. My daughter made a beautiful recipe similar to her fav at a Watsons Bay cafe. Avocado, tomato, basil, red onion , haloumi and balsamic vinegar tossed and served on Italian bread. Then I made a fruit salad of blackberries, blueberries, grapes , bannana with pureed raspberries. Yum Yum.

This morning I made the kids organic stoneground flour pancakes with strwaberries, bananna, raspberrie puree and organic maple syrup. They loved it.

The hardest one to convince is the youngest. He is always reluctant to try new things but I'll perservre.

I also will explore meditation more and try to get into yoga a bit more.

I know this is the right thing to be doing. Oh and my star sign today read exactly how I was feeling and that 2010 promises to be a great year for new adventures and finding my puropse.

So many exciting things lay ahead.

The old excuse

I had a bit of a bitch on Raechelle blog in her comment section.

People complaining they don't have time or use kids as an excuse to not do things. I hate that. People say to me "oh you must be so busy with 4 kids". Well no. I just try to be organised. I'm not always great at it but I try to be. I know it makes my life easier if i am. If I don't fit my exercise in its because I haven't priortised it or I'm just being lazy.

Like today for example. I had to drive to Sydney and back. I left home at 9am and got back at 6.30pm. Today I can't be stuffed doing a workout tonight. Its not because I don't have time as I could quite easily be doing it now. I just don't want to. Lazy is my excuse here.

People bitch & moan about time all the time. I just wish they'd be honest with them selves.

Anyway Sydney was a bitch. God I hate sitting in the crawl. I should have jumped out of the car whist the traffic lights were red(forever) and pumped out some pushups hey!!

I have indeed been a bit lazy this week. Insanity and my dates with Shaun T have not been too good this week. I've stood him up this week.,but my knees have thanked me for the rest and I'll be back into tommorow.

A new day

This is the actual beach of where I'll soon be living!!!!!

I CAN CHOOSE THE BEACH OR THE COUNRTY TO LOOSE MYSELF ON MY DAILY WALKS.

HOW LUCKY AM I!

I didn't let yesterdays scale result bring me down too much. No point dwelling on it, just need to find a way to adjust.


Today I awoke and took myself off for an early morning walk. I can't wait until we move then I'll be able to choose either a quiet country stroll or walk along the beach.


Oh the excitment and anticipation of starting afresh in a new location. This is why I love moving and this time it's been a long time coming. I lived in my current location for almost 5 years, the longest I've lived anywhere since I was 18.

I have so many new adventures to look foward too. These adventures will happen no matter what my weight is so although I look ahead to the day I'm smaller, I wont let this ruin what the future holds.

I'm so grateful for the opportunity thats ahead of me. I'm so very lucky and grateful that my family have shared in my dream and have allowed us another truly exciting life experience.

Wanna cry

I've been strutting around the last few weeks feeling so good about myself. Feeling myself feel smaller. Knowing that I'm pounding out the Insanity program geeting fitter and stronger.

So I decided to make the mother of all mistakes and jump on the scale. First time since July.

Well if theres a way to ruin your day thats it.

I just want to scream and run away.

All that work I've been doing trying to re program my thoughts, my attitude. the meditations. The self belief, the visualisation has been worth friggin jack shit nothing.

My measuresments are all up too. I am so dissappointed. I don't know where to go from here because I believed I was doing everything right. I thought I'd found the right path to follow. I've must have turned at the wrong intersection . Worst thing is I've been doing it for almost 6 months.

Oh god why do I feel I'll never shift this fat. If I was sitting down to binges, not caring what I ate I could accept this result.

What is the point. What is the point of all this exercise, you know the more muscle you have the faster you'll metabolise. Don't work for me. What is the point of trying to be health concious and eat the right thinf. Doesn't work for me. I know all this negativity is bad but honestly , what am I to believe now. I WAS believing but look where it has gotten me.

Have I wasted yet another 6 months of following the self belief road.

Where to now? I just don't know.

When i look in the mirror i think, hey I'm not so bad. My be I'm in denial. Yes I can see that I am carrying fat that I shouldn't be but I didn't think it was as much as the scale is saying.

I have never been this heavy. Never have I worked so hard on myself in trying to change my self. Has it all been in vain.

I need a new approach.

Please excuse me while I go have a sook.